"Your past so present you can feel your baby teeth." -Andrea Gibson Joseph asked me, "Where do you feel them?" To which I replied, "Lying dormant in between my rib cage to wake in the middle of the night gnawing on my heartstrings." Even after all this time, I still feel the hangnails from all… Continue reading Pressing
You and I, Side by side in the same bed for the first time since last November. The soles of my feet pressed up against your bare legs. I was dreaming of you again. I don't know how to forget you, You're always just past arms length.
A woman once told me that teeth were nothing more than exposed bone. Another said that kisses were special and I couldn't just ask for them anymore. I once flew across the world to get away from myself after I thought I was dead because my body didn't feel like it belonged to me anymore.… Continue reading A year late. Oct. 5, 2017
I need a fire. Stumbling through foyers with hands too busy with the other to shut the door. Slam it with our feet, make the house rattle. Tiny earthquakes. Midnight drives to the ocean. Sleeping bags placed side by side to wake with the morning sun. Dirty words whispered into the sides of flushed faces.… Continue reading More than most.
I feel as though Ive disappeared. Slipped through the cracks of the sidewalks. Water running in between my fathers fingertips. Have you ever thought you were dead? Did you pinch yourself to make sure you were surely still alive? There are scars on my body for all the times I needed to remember I was. … Continue reading MAWF Word Vomit
I overslept for fourteen hours last night. You've been on my mind since I opened my eyes. It's been 8 months. Your room in my heart still has the door unlocked. But it seems you've been sharing it with someone else since the before.
my heart still hurts. And my soul is still healing. And my suicidal tendencies creep up from behind to tap me on the shoulder like I forgot what it was like to want to rip off my skin. And I still pour the Dreaming Tree into my glass to get the taste of you out… Continue reading And…